To your left is the RPG of the year: Hikikomori.Hikikomori is a 24-hour RPG that you play by yourself.You take the role of a "hikikomori," a jobless shut-in who wastes their life away with unproductive hobbies and obsessions.In this RPG, you play out the daily life of your character, taking actions and rolling dice to see what mental or social complications arise.Take the right actions and roll well enough, and your hope may very well rise up high enough to see you break out of your shell and live a good, productive life.Take the wrong actions, and you sink into a pit of despair and hopelessness. You may very well perform a suicide attempt!Want to start playing?
>>24817766>You take the role of a "hikikomori," a jobless shut-in who wastes their life away with unproductive hobbies and obsessions.So 4chan-user simulator, right?I'd rather not, this may lead to stuff that actually happens, let me be an escapist.
>>24817766Jesus Christ. This is like dehydrated, canned depression.
>>24817766Aren't we already?
I like you. Thank you for bringing me this. I can end my life free of regret now.
Rolled 8, 10, 8 = 26WELP LETS DO THISTIME FOR HOPE
>Take the wrong actions, and you sink into a pit of despair and hopelessness. You may very well perform a suicide attempt!Well I already played the LARP version for years...
>>24817923I don't think this is how hope works. You start with "3d10" as in "three dice", and roll 3d10 when a hope roll is called for, and add/remove dice when told to.
Rolled 1, 9 = 10>>24817923NOT BAD, HURRAY FOR BLUE LANTERNSOK SINCE THIS IS /tg/ WE GONNA HAVE AN OBSESSIVE HOBBYTIME FOR 2 OTHER TRAITS
>>24817964oh shit ok nvm. Read that bit wrong>>24817972ok since we're already obsessed got to reroll
Rolled 10>>24817983I am very bad at dice rollan
Rolled 3, 3, 3 = 9>>24817972>>24817994right then we have a hobby, health issue, and a friendin that order lets see what we get
>>24818045oh shitwe're into hentai games and have an otaku friendand apparently make up a health issuehmmmmmm
>>24818070It's so accurate it's eerie.
>friendI am worse than pretend hikiiomori.
Oh shit! I love this game! I still play it from time to time. I thought the game was lost for good when my old computer crashed, but here it is! Thank you so much!I'll play it again and see if I can't get back to you all on what I got.
>>24818045Sounds like my life...
Rolled 2, 10 = 12Let us give playing this game a more formal attempt. For the sake of expediency of demonstration, this is not going to be run quest-style; I will be calling the shots here.First, let us come up with a basic concept for our hikikomori. Self-inserts are a time-honored tradition, so let us go with a /tg/-addicted NEET named "Fa/tg/uy."Our Hope statistic starts at 3d10. This is not rolled at character creation; rather, it is a dice pool that represents our character's willpower to improve his lifestyle.We get to pick out one Trait for him. Let us go with Obsessive Hobby. The Initialization section of that Trait tells us to decide on a hobby; obviously, we will go with Obsessive Hobby (/tg/). Our character does not actually play any traditional games; he merely posts about them on 4chan.We now roll 2d10 to decide on two more Traits.
Rolled 3>>24818280That 10 means that we have a Real Friend!Let us examine that later though, since we rolled a 2, which means Obsessive Hobby.At character creation, you cannot start with two of the same Trait type, so we have to roll 1d10 again.
>>24818297Awesome dude, you just got us a Rescuer, apparently someone cares about us enough to try to help us.And we also have a Real Friend. We're the most social Hikki ever.
>>24818297Aha, a Rescuer! We seem to be a very graced hikikomori; we have two people who appear to care for our well-being.Shall we continue with the traits of Obsessive Hobby (/tg/), Real Friend, and Rescuer, or reroll until we receive a more depressing permutation of Traits?
>>24818323I'm >>24818314and I'm good with us having friends. It'll just make the downward spiral more depressing as we toss away the few people who care about us.You might want to put on a name to prevent confusion instead of just going with Anon for this.
>this is a real thingStop
Rolled 4>>24818338Very well! It is now time to go through Initialization for our Traits.First, we roll 1d10 to determine the nature of our Real Friend. What could they be like, I wonder...?
Rolled 4>>24818406Great name.
>>24818406>Our friend is a NEETW-we can both help each other get it together, right?
>>24818406awww yea NEET time!lets go play vidya games and go to the local pub (shit that requires going outside I suppose)
>>24818406A NEET, interesting. I'd personally peg him as the normal sort compared to our /tg/ obsessed Hikki. Probably even goes outside and talk to people, hits up the local bar, lazes about, has friends outside of us. We've probably been friends of some kind for a while which explains why he knows us. Just my take on it.
My apologies for the delay.>>24818406>NEET (2d10): This is short for “Not in Education, Employment, or Training.” In essence, your friend is just like you, but somewhat more sociable.It seems that Fa/tg/uy has a kindred soul! Let us say that she is a plain-looking girl who lives in the same apartment building. Her main obsessions are Touhou, Axis Powers Hetalia, and yaoi. She knows nothing of traditional games, but that may very well change soon.Her name is Fujoshi.
Rolled 9>>24818481And now, we go through Initialization for our Rescuer Trait.The process is similar: a simple 1d10 roll on a table.
>>24818481>having a friend>knowing a girlThis hikikomori quest is rapidly becoming 'hikikomori wish-fulfilment quest'
>>24818507Well, at least it isn't a hypocrite.
>>24818465>lets go play vidya games and go to the local pub (shit that requires going outside I suppose)Confirmed for having never been a NEET.
>>24818509She's a fujoshi into yaoi and Hetalia, I would hardly consider that human let alone female.
>>24818507Oooooh, a Crusader.>Crusader (2d10): This person has some deep-rooted need to get you out of hiding at all costs, and doesn’t want to take no for an answer.Let us say that Fa/tg/uy still lives under his working-class mother. She pays all of the bills, and she legitimately cares for him, but she is deeply frustrated with how much of an unproductive layabout Fa/tg/uy is.
So, Fa/tg/uy has the following statistics:Hope: 3d10Trait: Obsessive Hobby (/tg/): 3d10Trait: Real Friend (NEET): 2d10Trait: Rescuer (Crusader): 2d10And now for the meat of the gameplay.A single game of Hikikomori takes place over the course of seven days.At the start of each day, you roll the dice pools of all of your Traits. The three Traits with the highest results act up, causing Trait Actions that must be resolved. (If you have only three Traits though, there is no point in rolling.)AFTER those Traits are resolved, you are free to choose three Player Actions.
Rolled 3, 6, 8 = 17Let us begin, shall we now?Day #1: Prelude to the Dark AbyssLet us go through the Trait Actions of our three Traits in alphabetical order.First, we roll 3d10 to determine what our Obsessive Hobby does to us. This Trait Action is an insidious one, sapping away at our Player Actions!
>>24818590Right, so, trait actions. We're going to have to browse /tg/. Avoid Fujoshi. And hide from Mom.Right?
>>24818614but how else am i supposed to finish my fanfiction
>>24818614And so it comes to pass that fa/tg/uy immediately wakes up and spends several hours browsing /tg/. He gets into several edition war threads, posts in a few Game Finder threads desperately looking for people to GM an ERP game for him, posts threads about Lawful Good necromancers and "how to make elves better," and other flights of fiction and fancy.Fortunately, he manages to restrain himself before he gets carried away. Phew.
>>24818638Now it's time for the cringing as reality sets in.
Rolled 5, 2 = 7And now we roll 2d10, the dice pool of our Real Friend (NEET), to see what happens with her Trait Action!What could she be up to, I wonder...?
>>24818668Ah, uneventfulness. Fujoshi knocks at the door and asks Fa/tg/uy for some deodorant.After several minutes of frantic searching, he finally manages to procure a tiny, worn-out stick of deodorant, nervously tosses it at the door, and hopes Fujoshi picks it up herself.
>>24818668>Nothing happensGreat, that just means she has more time to possibly bug us.
>Let us say that Fa/tg/uy still lives under his working-class mother. She pays all of the bills, and she legitimately cares for him, but she is deeply frustrated with how much of an unproductive layabout Fa/tg/uy is.I-I don't want to play a-anymore.
Rolled 9, 9 = 18Fa/tg/uy's social woes are far from over. His mother, the Rescuer (Crusader), now rolls her dice pool of 2d10 for her own Trait Action!
>>24818710Ah, more uneventfulness. Fa/tg/uy's mother attempts to cheer him up by preparing some food he likes. She knows that he loves Japanese food, so she does her best preparing some fancy tuna sushi.Unfortunately, she neglected the fact that he loathes the "plebeian" flavor of tuna sushi, instead preferring the much more genteel salmon and hamachi varieties.She sighs as her efforts go unrewarded.
>>24818710Fuck off ma!I'm sorry mom. I'm a terrible son. I'm sorry that you went through such adversity and pain in your life to have me, such an awful product. Oh god. this cuts too deep
>>24817766>You take the role of a "hikikomori,Haha, yes, 'take the role of', a game of pretend, haha, yes. Right. Pretend.
Rolled 2, 10, 3 = 15>>24818710You needed to roll 5d10. You add your Hope and your Rescuer dice together. If you don't mind I'll roll the missing 3 dice (hopefully, haven't used the dice function in ages).
>>24818741Nah, this is more like her knocking on the door, and saying, "Honey? There's this new Japanese place in town...I was figuring we might, y'know, go out tonight? I know you're interested in sushi...""Uh," Oh god. Going out? What the fuck? I haven't even showered. And what would even happen? She'd try to talk to me, ask me how I'm doing. Whether I'm looking for work. Going to go back to college. No. "S-Sorry, I'm, uh, I'm not feeling too good. Sorry mom.""Oh. I'm sorry honey. Well, if you need anything-""No, I'm good! Just leave me alone," Shit, that sounded too harsh, "I, I, I don't want to get you sick too...""...Ok honey."She walks away. You hear her walking away, and you squeeze your eyes shut. Shake your head. You can do it another day. Maybe somebody will actually accept a player, and you can skype with them...
Rolled 7, 8, 3, 6, 6 = 30And now, it is time to take three Player Actions.Oh, wait, Fa/tg/uy's Obsessive Hobby (/tg/) sapped one of those away. So, two Player Actions.First, fa/tg/uy attempts to Share his Obsessive Hobby. He considers the prospect of getting Fujoshi into RPGs. That way, he could... could... get her to play with him! Maybe even ERP! With a real girl! It would be a dream come true!Fa/tg/uy gets on the IRC channel that he knows Fujoshi frequents, opens up a PM window, and hopes for the best.We now roll Fa/tg/uy's Obsessive Hobby pool of 3d10 versus Fujoshi's Real Friend pool of 2d10.
>>24818790"That's cool, can I RP as Russia-kun?"
This thread has succeeded in reminding me that I am a horrible failure of a son. I entered college for the express purpose of fulfilling my parents desires to have a child who they can brag about to relatives, despite having no aptitude in the field that was selected for me (engineering). I'm in my senior year, having barely clawed my way here with shitacular grades, I'm already hiding failed classes from them and taking more units per semester then they realize so that they won't beat/punish me for failing, and since they expect me to graduate this semester, and since I'm pretty sure I've failed my exams which were this week, and haven't completed my senior design project in time to check in by the end of semester, I'll probably have to run and end up in a shelter or finding a room to bunk in on craigslist until I can get a job to support myself.Sage for not contributing to thread.
Rolled 5, 8, 6, 9, 6, 1 = 35>>24818790Fa/tg/uy's 18 vs. Fujoshi's 12.Alas, she thinks that RPGs are kind of neat (and she gets giddy upon realizing that she can RP as Russia-kun), but she is not so interested in the "game" part of "RPG." Fa/tg/uy reads her messages in the wrong way altogether, thinking that she is legitimately intrigued; he should definitely try again tomorrow!For now, he attempts to write up a basic guide to RPGs for her, compiling information from various sources, putting a bunch of beginner-friendly RPGs in a .zip file, and so on. Come to think of this... perhaps he could post this on /tg/! That would be something productive, right?Fa/tg/uy will now Use his Obsessive Hobby for Good, adding together his Hope dice pool and his Obsessive Hobby dice pool for a total of 6d10.
>>24818860Fa/tg/uy's diligence pays off to a small degree. Various lurkers and never-actually-played posters on /tg/ begin to take an interest in his "Babby's First RPG" thread, and it seems as though he has helped people get into the hobby in a good way!It might not help Fa/tg/uy himself get into the game, but... he feels just a bit warmer inside.And more obsessed. His Obsessive Hobby (/tg/) dice pool increases to 4d10.
Rolled 6, 3, 9, 9 = 27>>24818886And so ends the first day. Nothing particularly eventful occurred, other than his Obsessive Hobby increasing by one die.Day #2: Breaking the Stasis (Hopefully)You know the routine by now. Let us start off with a roll of 4d10 to see how much Fa/tg/uy's Obsessive Hobby enthralls him!
I want to kill myself but am too much of a coward to do it. I am sorry i am such a failure.
Rolled 5, 4 = 9>>24818911Roll for suicide attempt vs hope!
>>24818908Oh dear! Fa/tg/uy gets involved in the edition war of a lifetime! Thread after thread after thread of "Explain why you hate 3.5 or 4e," "Why should fighters be as strong as wizards?", and "Is D&D Next going to be better than 4e?" batter his sensibilities.He must... he simply must post in them all, and hold steadfast...By the time he comes to his senses, a full twelve hours have passed.Fa/tg/uy's Obsessive Hobby (/tg/) has increased to 5d10.
>>24818911who are you apologizing to?
>>24818911Killing yourself isn't cool, bro.
Rolled 7, 1 = 8Now we shall see what becomes of Fa/tg/uy's Real Friend, the NEET named Fujoshi!Another 2d10 roll. What does fate have in store for her?
>>24818911killing yourself is the cowards way out, you've got it backward
I am not posting much, but I do want to say I appreciate this and am following it. In a sick way, his life mirrors my own. Aside from having a female friend.
>>24818961Listen to this man. He speaks truth.
>>24817766This hits too close to home, please go away.I wish I could find meaning in existence, oh god how I wish I could.
>>24818954Ah, another uneventful occurrence.Fa/tg/uy hears the doorbell ring. He is too frightened to answer it, so his mother does so in his stead. She soon approaches his room with an empty, armpit hair-laden deodorant stick. It comes with a Post-It Note attached:"Sorry for using it all up, nyaaa~" - Fujoshi
Rolled 6, 5 = 11What does his mother have to say about this gripping turn of events?Let us roll her Rescuer (Crusader) dice pool of 2d10 to find out!
>>24818986>empty, armpit hair-laden deodorant stick>"Sorry for using it all up, nyaaa~"I move that we use our one action to remove this disgusting excuse for a human from our small social circle.
>>24818961>>24818981People say that to feel better about themselves, but it doesn't do the suicidal state of mind justice and saying it doesn't really help anyone.Suicide is scary as fuck. People who attempt it are just more scared what happens if they don't.A poet I enjoy likened it to being stuck high up in a burning building and jumping out the window. Both staying and jumping are horrifying options, but burning to death is almost certainly the worse option.
>>24818984No meaning but what we make. Yeah, sure, same shit platitudes but go outside and take a walk or something. Help some people.
>>24819004You forgot to add hope to the roll.......again
>>24818911Don't do it Anon. Soon we'll hit the singularity and our kind can just find a nice corner in a dirty basement, plug in an iv nutrient drip and hook into the magic world where magic is real and you can live forever with your pure waifu. Soon anon. Soon.
>>24819004you forgot to add hope to the roll
Rolled 4, 4, 7 = 15>>24819042>>24819049My mistake; you are completely correct. I had missed that the first time.We are supposed to add Hope to the roll for the Rescuer.Let us take our result of 11 and then roll 3d10.
>>24819018you have a point. And that analogy can keep going, too; the fire might not be as bad as it seems, or firefighters could be close to rescuing you, but you can't see it now. At the same time, if you jump, there just might be someone there to catch you; you're too high up to tell what's down there.At the end of the day though, /tg/ is not the place to go for help.
>>24819064>>24819049>>24819042Hmm, I dunno. It seems a little too easy almost.
>>24819020I can't do the sciences, and it is all pointless in the end, everything we accomplish will be for no reason other than pointless struggle.I think I will stay in my room and watch the small pittance of time granted to me pass by. Maybe if I look hard enough I can find something cool.
>>24819082>it is all pointless in the endThat's why you're supposed to have fun in the here and now, since it won't matter in the end. But to have fun, you need some money! So, struggle a little to have fun later on! Go for it!
>>24819082I would reply with something something journey better than destination, but I'm just a random fag on the Internet.If you're content, then who am I to argue?Share it with the rest of us if you find something cool, through!
>>24819074let at least our imaginary neckbeard have some hope. We created this duder, we're responsible for him
>>24819064A 26!>25-32: You feel a little better about yourself. Gain a die of Hope.Fa/tg/uy is impressed by his mother performing the dangerous task of handling biohazardous waste on his behalf, and he verbally expresses this.She steps out of Fa/tg/uy's room for a minute, tosses it in the kitchen wastebin, washes her hands thoroughly, and comes back with a surprise: Some takeout from a sushi place she visited herself back during lunch time. And it is the kind he likes too!Fa/tg/uy feels his morale rise just a bit. His Hope increases to 4d10.
I need some sleep anons, if I don't make it back. Just know that even if we never knew each other, or you only offhandedly replied to me. I fucking love you guys and I would not take back the years I spent here for anything.Keep doing what ever makes you happy guys.
>>24819127Hope! We must crush this.
>>24819107>>24819109Thanks guys, I can always count on you.
Rolled 6, 2, 7, 7, 9, 5, 8 = 44And now for Fa/tg/uy's Player Action. Since his Obsessive Hobby (/tg/) had drained away two of his Player Actions, he is left with only one.Armed with his "Babby's First RPG" guide, and mentally setting aside the incident with the deodorant stick, he hopes to get Fujoshi into RPGs. Onto IRC!Fa/tg/uy's 5d10 vs. Fujoshi's 2d10. Who will prevail?
>>24819082>everything we accomplish will be for no reason other than pointless struggle>that feelYesterday I had a fly in my room. It was sort of annoying at first but then I watched it for a while and decided it was pretty cool. I mean, they're annoying and dirty right? Who likes flies? They're not even on the level of spiders where they evoke fear, they're just fucking worthless. Well, in a twisted sort of way I saw myself in that fly-bro. Just buzzing around smacking into the window over and over again trying to get outside. He was here almost all day. It was nice to have some company. In the end though I opened up my window and he flew out. I figured at least one of us could be free.
>>24819148Oh god damn it.
>>24819148Fa/tg/uy's 31 vs. Fujoshi's 13.>They’re won over by your hobby’s charms. If the person was a Rescuer, they become a Real Friend instead. Regardless, you gain a die to your Obsessive Hobby trait.Fujoshi is absolutely thrilled by the prospect of getting to RP as Russia-kun, and Fa/tg/uy's "Babby's First RPG" pack is going to make it so much easier for her to get into the "game" part of "RPG"!He offers to help her navigate the PDFs and .txt files, and they go through a long and arduous process of RPG pedagogy.Fa/tg/uy feels his obsession grow stronger and stronger. Soon, soon... he will ERP with a real girl.His Obsessive Hobby (/tg/) has increased to a monstrous 6d10.
>>24819170'Ne ne, fa/tg/uy-kun, you be Italy-kun and I'll be Germany-sama!'
>>24819179we are never going to be able to do anything.We need to work to suicide, before we spread our blight further.
Fucks sake /tg/, I come here to get AWAY from these feels.
Rolled 3, 1, 6, 1, 7, 7 = 25And so ends the second day. Fa/tg/uy gained a bit of Hope thanks to his mother, the flames of his obsession burned brightly, and he seduced someone into the RPG fold.Day #3: Uncharted Waters, New FrontiersThe moment fa/tg/uy rises from his ratty bed, he can hear the siren call of the Traditional Games board of 4chan. We now roll a staggering 6d10 to determine how much time it sucks up.
>>24819208And in an astonishing turn of events that surprised absolutely fucking no one, fa/tg/uy wastes away his day on /tg/.
>>24819208We never had a chance...
>>24819208>19+: You indulge in it a lot; lose two of your regular actions for that day, and the trait gains a die.Something immediately Fa/tg/uy's eye the moment he sets foot onto the board. A thread regarding the most infamous, vilest of /tg/ terrors: Colette.By the time he comes to his senses, a full thirteen hours have passed.His Obsessive Hobby (/tg/) has increased to 7d10.
Rolled 4, 1 = 5Time to see what Fa/tg/uy's Real Friend is up to!Another 2d10, if you will, dice roller?
>>24819224>>19+: You indulge in it a lot; lose two of your regular actions for that day, and the trait gains a die.Calling it now, his character is going to die, and he will kill himself in response.
>>24819224This is getting ridiculous. By this rate, we could probably make the president a slave to /tg/ with our ridiculous dice pool.
I'm already playing this game in real life, motherfucker and losing
Christ. At this rate the only thing that can save us is 4chan going down or b&hammer.
>>24819236Fujoshi turns out to be That Guy.
>>24819236Well shit. She must have been pretty mad we left her hanging about that RPG.
>>24819242Chick was right!
>>24819236>1-5: Your friend manages to do something that convinces him that he doesn’t deserve to be your friend. Remove the Real Friend trait.Something is wrong. Fujoshi is not responding to Fa/tg/uy's private messages over IRC.He pings her once. Twice. Thrice. What is wrong? Does she not want to begin her first foray into ERP with him?Ping. Ping. Ping.After a few hours of anxiety, he finally receives a message. "Sorry. Found a group to do Hetalia/Touhou crossover ERP with."But... no... how could this be? She has a group now... something he had been longing for all this time... no. No. No!
>>24819236Fujoshi tried to run a session for us.
>>24819272She didn't invite us. That harlot.
>>24819272At least we got a response and an excuse instead of just getting put in ignore....
>>24819272It's alright. By rules, we can turn Mom into a Real Friend. Our dice pool is capable of the impossible.
Rolled 2, 6, 9, 4, 7, 3 = 31Shockingly, losing a Real Friend does not affect Hope in any way.So, let us add our Hope 4d10 to our Rescuer 2d10 for a total of 6d10!What shall Fa/tg/uy's mother do...? Will she be able to cheer him up?
>>24819291Its just like one of our animes!
>>24819312With our stupidly good rolls, was anything else possible?Maybe Mom thinks that with the passion we're displaying for traditional games, we might actually have something approximating a career.Time to write FATAL 2: The Maid Wars everybody.
>>24819312>25-32: You feel a little better about yourself. Gain a die of Hope.Fa/tg/uy breaks down into tears. Why, why was this happening? Was it because he spent too much time posting on /tg/, and ignored her? Was that an excuse, or did she really find a group for herself and not invite him?Waaaaaah. Waaaaaaaaah!Fa/tg/uy's loud wailing and crying invites his mother, who rushes to his side and does all in her power to calm him down. She runs a hand down his back and lets her shoulder soak his tears. Once he is a little calmer, she heads over to the kitchen and fetches him some chocolate milk.Glug. Glug. Glug. Fa/tg/uy feels considerably more composed now, and when his mother notices, she sits him down for a talk. She asks what his hobby is all about, he explains the basics, and she manages to convince him that if he loves it so much, why not try to write his own RPG and make people happy that way?That... that seems like a good idea. Ideas begin to spark in his mind...
>>24819347Hikikomori: The Reckoning: Revengeance: Redemption.By the by, this Mom is a ridiculously tolerant mom.
>>24819347AND YOU MAKE HIKIKOMORI IN A 24-HOUR RPG THREADFUCKING SHIT WE'VE COME FULL CIRCLE
Rolled 6, 10, 5, 9, 6, 9, 3, 2, 4, 5, 6, 6 = 71>>24819347With fa/tg/uy's Hope bolstered to 5d10, he comes to the realization that if he can channel his passion for traditional games into homebrew work, he might produce something good!Then people will flock to him! People all wanting to play his game! He will become so, so popular! Maybe he can even get it up on KS for funding, and get his name out there!This is something he must do.Fa/tg/uy sets aside the tragedy of his lost friend, gathers up all his willpower, and rolls his Hope 5d10 together with his Obsessive Hobby 7d10. He will Use It for Good.
>>24819363Oh Christ. It's unstoppable now.
>>24819374We've made denizens of /tg/ re-evaluate their lives. Including our own.Of course, through the lens of tabletop gaming. Can't stop posting at all anymore.
>>24819363Mein Gotte. What is this beautiful thing we have created...?
>>24819363>41+ You truly touch some lives, in a way that makes you reevaluate your life. Increase your Obsessive Hobby and your Hope by one die.And, in a matter of just a handful of hours, far less than the allowance for a 24-hour RPG thread... he produces a masterpiece.All look upon it in awe. It spawns a thread that reaches 300+ posts. Then a second. Then a third.Before he knows it, all of /tg/ is going mad over the RPG he has entitled..."NEET."
>>24819387This is getting so meta.
>>24819387WE /tg/ NOW
>>24819396The PC is named fa/tg/uy, I think this was inevitable.
>>24819387Oh god they go up a die now too?We gonna be famous. Rub it in that bitches face right good when we do too.
>>24819387Oh, and his Hope has increased to 6d10 while his Obsessive Hobby (/tg/) has increased to 8d10.Fa/tg/uy's mother cannot quite comprehend the inner workings of his project, but she is proud to see him so enthusiastic and driven.And so ends the third day.
Any way to get a Real Friend back or do we just keep going until our hope or obssession die eventually change our life?
>>24819403Oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck.We need to become a mod.
>>24819408We keep going until 7 days have passed.I think there should be caps on traits, to prevent guaranteed hope farming. I realize this is less of a game, and more of a writing aid, but the idea intrigues me. Getting so much hope this easily kinda defeats the point of a hikikomori game, I feel. Though, to be fair, we also had a friend and a rescuer helping as well.
Rolled 2, 3, 3, 6, 5, 9, 1, 5 = 34Day #4: Dawn of a New Age/tg/ beckons. In an amazing turn of events, there is now a sticky thread on the game known only as "NEET." He knows what he must do: field questions and bask in resplendent glory.We now roll 8d10 to see precisely how much /tg/ enthralls him.
>>24819403We shall be the most powerful neckbeard in all the boards
>>24819431There is pretty much no chance in hell that he will not fall prey to /tg/ and take up two actions. His life is /tg/, he brings hope with /tg/, he is /tg/ incarnate. He only has one action a day, ONE.
>>24819431As if there was any doubt about the time anymore.
>>24819427>Though, to be fair, we also had a friend and a rescuer helping as well.I should probably point out that if I had added the result of 18 here >>24818710 to the 15 from the Hope dice that someone else rolled here >>24818784, we would have gotten a 33, boosting Hope and the Rescuer dice pools by 1 each.>>24819431Unsurprisingly, Fa/tg/uy spends most of his day answering questions and hyping "NEET" up on /tg/. When they asked if he would set up a KS, who was he to say "No"?Fa/tg/uy's Obsessive Hobby dice pool has increased to 9d10.
>>24819427I don't think you really need to add Hope to the Rescuer dice pool. I mean, it makes sense, but it makes things REALLY easy if you roll a Rescuer at character creation.
>>24819431Hmm, once you hit a point with Obsessive it becomes a vicious self-reinforcing cycle that leads to you being unable to break the habit or do anything. I mean at this point we have pretty much no chance of not burning two actions on it.It's an easy thing to fall into. Given our Obsession Dice it's pretty much impossible for us to do anything but obsess, and somehow gain hope from it.I'd normally complain about weird death spirals that are impossible to break in an RPG, but it seems oddly fitting.
>>24819455Not exactly. A rescuer can be good, bad, or average.
Rolled 10, 4, 10, 1, 9, 10, 1, 10 = 55Since fa/tg/uy no longer has a Real Friend, we now skip directly to the Rescuer Trait Action!Adding our Hope of 6d10 to Fa/tg/uy's mother's 2d10 gives us 8d10.Let us see what happens!
>>24819431Our e-peen shall be the greatest in the land. Ours is the e-peen destined to unite /tg/, to rally the masses, to dethrone moot, and seize 4chan.
>>24819453Marvelous, we now need to roll all 1s to NOT waste away at least part of our day on /tg/.Well, if we end up profiting, I guess there's no harm.>must urintehJust hold it in, captcha, we have to answer these questions...
This... What? What? What, I... What?
>>24819468Oh, that's another effect. Our Mom is getting super buffed as well, giving us even more ridiculous amounts of Hope.Probably by the end of these days, our Mom will become a professional Otaku resocializer in Japan.
>>24819468>33+ You feel better about yourself, and your Rescuer is encouraged to keep trying. Both your Hope and your Rescuer trait gain a die.Fa/tg/uy's mother may know little of tabletop RPGs, but she knows when something big is happening. After discussing matters with her son, she realizes the shining diamond that he has just crafted. She stands there for a few moments, shocked, before her mouth curls up into a smile, she looks Fa/tg/uy in the eye, and says:"Let us do this together, son."The resounding clap of a high-five could be heard 'round the world.
This mom is greatest mom
>>24819489See, this is what I mean. We've entered into an upward spiral from which there is no escape.Mom is OP, Mom needs a nerf.
>>24819502What the fuck is going on?
>>24819502>The resounding clap of a high-five could be heard 'round the world.We are so american it hurts.
>>24819507Why do you want to drag us back down into NEEThood, Anon?
>>24819502WE HAVE AN ACTIONLET'S GO OUTSIDE, SEE IF WE CAN RE-INTRODUCE OUR FRIEND FROM THE OTHER DAY TO NEET.>>24819513pic related
>>24819502Use Hobby For Good again. Time to become successful RPG developer.
>>24819507Wee if we had rolled low on her rolls we would have lost hope or rescuer dies, which would push us into a downward spiral.
>>24819502Our Mom. She doesn't know what the fuck we're babbling about, but she knows our obsession is what empires are made from.
>>24819525Your pain pleases me. It is my sustenance.
Just to give a recap of how far we have come.We started off with:Hope: 3d10Trait: Obsessive Hobby (/tg/): 3d10Trait: Real Friend (NEET): 2d10Trait: Rescuer (Crusader): 2d10During days 1 and 2, we rolled mediocrely, performed some suboptimal actions, and even forgot to add Hope to one dice pool. By days 3 and 4, we settled into an *extremely* optimal pattern and got into a groove.We now have:Hope: 7d10Trait: Obsessive Hobby (/tg/): 8d10Trait: Rescuer (Crusader): 3d10
>>24819527Actually, Go Outside. Our Hope die basically guarantees a somewhat good encounter.
>>24819545we gan' get through this, yoWith a horrific /tg/ bent, but we're gonna get through this
>>24819545Keep it up.
>>24819527>>24819552Yeah, we've not done that yet, have we. Let's open the door and go to that sushi place as a celebration.
>>24819545Shit, with three days left to go we're nearly guaranteed to successfully kickstart NEET and become a professional game designer or something, emerging from our shell into a fa/tg/uy's wet dream career.
>>24819545We are made of HOPE and /TG/. We may only have one action a day, but if we keep on Using our /tg For Good we are pretty much guaranteed to get +1 Hope a day, and the +1 Hope from our Mother supporting us by the end of tomorrow we will have 10 /tg/ dice. If we keep it up we will hit 10 hope during day 6.We shall emerge from our cocoon as the greatest RPG creator the world has ever seen and share the tearful hug with our Mother.
Rolled 1, 2, 1, 4, 4, 5, 3, 4, 2, 6, 10, 6, 9, 7, 2 = 66KS awaits.With voice acting from his mother for the video, and artwork from $7-a-drawing DeviantArtists, Fa/tg/uy launches the project."NEET: A Game of Solitude and Hope."He will most certainly Use his Obsessive Hobby for Good. With Hope at 7d10 and his Obsessive Hobby at 8d10, he has a staggering dice pool of 15d10 for this.
>>24819572>implying /tg/ dice won't fail us just when we need it most
>>24819585Looks like its hard work in the beginning but our boi here is gonna power through and be based.
See, /tg/? Even a completely made up on the spot RPG character version of you has gotten off his ass and made something of himself in only 3 days. And that's cause he has no control of his actions. Imagine what you can accomplish in three days. Let's get off our asses and DO!
>>24819585>41+ You truly touch some lives, in a way that makes you reevaluate your life. Increase your Obsessive Hobby and your Hope by one die.Funded in less than two hours. Fa/tg/uy and his mother are ecstatic. The pledges keep going up, and up, and up. He struggles to come up with enough stretch goals. Online interviews with the developer. Him running a game for people. GOLD-PLATED deluxe editions.And yet the pledges keep coming.Fa/tg/uy's Hope increases to 8d10, and his Obsessive Hobby (/tg/) increases to 9d10.And thus, the fourth day ends on a high note. A note of unbridled optimism.
>>24819585dude teach our mom about rpgs and stuff, she becomes a real friend and things get interesting with that table
>>24819618But I'm at work!
>>24819618I, for one, am inspired. Gotta go, have bike to ride towards rainbow.
>>24819628Make her a Real Friend, roll so high that she kicks us out.
>>24819628No, because then she'd have a chance of leaving. Rescuer is far better.
>>24819588We have 15 dice to using our Hobby For Good, actually we have more. At 15d10 the chance of failing to hit 41+ is less than 1%, it's less than .01%.
>>24819618I'm trying to program with the roll20 api a system which would allow me to run visual-novel style games, final-fantasy style battles and simulated radio chatter for better immersion and some spooky things.
>>24819648Actually...Now that I wrote that, that'd be a good thing for her, wouldn't it?
Rolled 5, 10, 2, 1, 2, 9, 3, 1 = 33Day #5: Dragon AscendantDo you know what time it is?Time to roll Fa/tg/uy's Obsessive Hobby (/tg/) dice pool of 8d10 and watch as he is suckered onto the board once again.
>>24819654Never tell me the odds!
>>24819648we already got our game bankrolled imagine the glory of becoming a success and moving out
I think I get it, the goal of this game is to make us feel good about ourselves by since it's very unlikely that you'll end up in anything other than an upward spiral; at which point, bloated on imaginary success, one of two things happen: it inspires us to break out and make it happen in reality, or become complacent and keep staying inside by rationalizing that we've already succeeded so one more day glued to the computer can't hurt...I really wish that it's the former, but I just know that it'll be the latter. Whoever made this is some kind of diabolical genius.
>>24819668>33Ha! Ha! I'm using the internets!
>>24819668Time for us to bask in our glory...But might it be we're resting too easy on our laurels?No, because that's not built in to the system at all.
>>24819659...We should think about Mom on this one.We should teach her about our hobby, show her why we love it so much. Once she understands, she will begin to support us, not just because we are her son, but because we are her friend.Then... when we've finally reached internet stardom... she'll realize that her baby has finally emerged from his shell and, for the first time in decades, doesn't need his mother anymore. What better to do, but to let him go...?queue gross sobbing, calls to mom with words of appreciation.
>>24819668>19+: You indulge in it a lot; lose two of your regular actions for that day, and the trait gains a die.A second sticky thread on "NEET: A Game of Solitude on Hope" rises from the depths.Fa/tg/uy steps forth, takes a seat on his throne of autism and RPG crunch, and inspires the subjects of his kingdom.
>>24819654That sounds pretty cool. How far are you in it?
Rolled 3, 10, 2, 8, 6, 6, 1, 8, 9, 9, 2 = 64So, fa/tg/uy's Obsessive Hobby (/tg/) is now at a behemothic 9d10.But what of Fa/tg/uy's mother? We now add our Hope of 8d10 to her Rescuer dice pool of 3d10.Let us see what happens...
>>24819668We had a 99.96% chance of getting 19+ on that roll right now.It's an inescapable cycle. We can't Resist it, our Hope is lower than our Obsession at this point, it's extremely unlikely that we'd beat it. >>24819686The big one is the Rescuer, it's pretty likely for that to lead you into a Hope Spiral, and we didn't get any really bad Traits. If you have something like Delusion, Imaginary Friend, or something along those lines it's easy to lose a die or two of Hope which'll cause you to lose more Hope until you hit 0.
I feel I should note that this was written by the translator of MaidRPG and creator of Magical Burst.He is a genius and good games flow forth from his brainmeats.Also I have wanted to do a viral blog/vlog in the vein of lonelygirl15 with this since I first read it. I totally would, too, if I knew how to reel people in to get people to read it.I think it'd be really interesting to see how people would react to these situations, not knowing it was a writing exercise.
>>24819715>33+ You feel better about yourself, and your Rescuer is encouraged to keep trying. Both your Hope and your Rescuer trait gain a die.Fa/tg/uy's mother comes to him with good tidings. She has made the calls to her contacts and friends, and it seems that the publishers, editors, layout designers, and professional artists are all ready and accounted for. Everything is on schedule, and the RPG book's future is looking bright!The two embrace one another as mother and child, and both cannot help but shed tears of joy.Fa/tg/uy's Hope dice pool is now 9d10, and his mother's Rescuer dice pool is now 4d10.
>>24819745Is there any way to sabotage this?
>>24819717Upward, downward, it's all the same; either scenario ends with being pumped up and ready to prove it right/defy its prediction or satisfied/depressed by imagination and staying in.
>>24819735Uh, you're on /tg/. I bet half of us would give it a shot. I would.
>>24819745H:tR:R:R, I've known you for all of this thread. I have to ask this of you. For our one action, we need to make Mom a Real Friend so she can kick us out and force us both to move on with our lives. It's the best option for both of us, you know it in your heart to be true.
> getting rich writing an rpgIt doesn't work that way.
>>24819749Take do nothing and try and get a delusion/imaginary friend/suicidal thought trait. Or waste time and try to gain a Perversion or another Obsessive Hobby.
>>24819735eh, i'd say that increasing dicepools lead to snowballing. But that's what the game is about basically, so i guess in this case it's okay.
>>24819770It does when you are the god of fa/tg/uys
>>24819749I suppose technically we could use our one free action that is left from /tg/ing to Do Nothing and hope to get Suicidal Thoughts or something like that, but with our Hope we'd beat the shit out of those guys.
>>24819770>Getting enough money to rent your own hole in the wall.>Rich
Rolled 1, 5, 1, 5, 4, 7, 9, 7, 5, 8, 10, 1, 4, 2, 2, 1, 2, 7 = 81This is probably going to be the last action necessary. This is most likely it, people.Everything is ready. All is laid out before him. It is almost surreal how quickly everything happened.RPG books should take longer than this to go through editing and such, right? It was almost as though everything was just a highly unrealistic dream, like all dreams are...Fa/tg/uy cleared his mind of those thoughts. He gives the go-ahead for the RPG book and seizes his destiny.This is the height of Using his Obsessive Hobby for Good.With Hope at 9d10 and his Obsessive Hobby also at 9d10... is there anything that can stop Fa/tg/uy now?
>>24819770It does when you go into MAXIMUM START-KICKING
>>24819776There should be a roll we have to make to keep us from doing one or both of those things. It would make things like what we've created harder to achieve.
>>24819791DING DING DINGWE HAVE A WINNA!
>>24819791No, no there isn't. He has become the true beacon of nerddom, I think that adding your Hope and Hobby dice together for that makes it way too likely to succeed and lead to an upward spiral. And I'd say the same thing about adding your Hope and Rescuer Dice together for the Rescuer thing. Snowballing is good and makes sense in this game but it should be harder to snowball upwards like that and easier to snowball downwards.
>>24819791Hope of 10. We are Hikki no longer.
>>24819791And so ends the fifth day. Success and victory taste like nectar.I chose that action mainly to get our Hope to 10d10 and our Obsessive Hobby to 10d10 as well.You see, when you have Hope at 10 dice by the end of seven days, you automatically win the game.Now, we have two more days which we can use for whatever we want, really. It is virtually impossible to lose Hope dice at this point.We can afford to screw around on the sixth and seventh days since we have effectively won the game.
>>24819807Very much this. You don't end up a shut-in if things are this easy. You have problems, they should haunt you.
>>24817766Fuck you OP, it is my life already, i don't want to play it any more.
>>24819812Bear in mind, we also managed this while technically *handicapping* ourselves on day #1, since we forgot to add our Hope dice to our Rescuer Trait Action (which would have increased our Hope and our Rescuer Trait both by 1).
>>24819812>winning the gameThis isn't about winning, though.
>>24819812MOM, OUR ONE BEACON OF HOPE, THE TRUE CHAMPION OF THIS DAY, DESERVES HER PEACE. PLEASE, HAVE HER KICK US OUT.
>Obsessive Hobby>Use For Good>Indulging in your hobby or trying to get others interested is much easier than trying to use it for something that benefits others, but it’s worth a try. Roll your Hope and trait, and add them together. Then check the following table.>You can only use this action once for a given Obsessive Hobby.We've been living a lie. Fa/tg/uy will wake up in a hospital bed with his mother and Fujoshi standing over him.
>>24819820We just got lucky by not having any really negative traits.
>>24819812Let's Go Outside tomorrow, and Share our Hobby with our Mother on Day 7. Because we're such a fucking grognard that we have one action a day.>>24819842Well fuck, that kinda kneecaps this entire project.
>>24819791It is done.A year down the line, maybe we'll be at a con. We'll look better now, lost a bit of weight. Signing some books. We're not rich, no, but we've got a modicum of fame and respect for 'NEET.' We've got money enough for an apartment. But we got a bit too comfy- no, we're not going bankrupt, but we have to get another one done. A rueful shake of the head, and a grin as you sign a book for some chucklefuck dressed up like a yellow and red marine who asked you to sign it as 'the cancer that killed /tg/.' You think to yourself about the possibility of calling up Mom again, maybe that was the spark that got the book rolling? No. You contemplate, staring forward a bit. It was the part where you saw the abyss that your life was going in to and embraced it. That...And something else."Uh, hey," A familiar voice. You glance up, blink. Trying to place this face."I was, ahem, I was wondering...Could you sign something else?"She carefully sets down a Kinko's bound pile of sheets. The title page has "Babby's First RPG" at the front.
>>24819842Oh god. That is just hilarious.
>>24819833We're also cheating since you can't use Use For Good more than once for each obsessive hobby. But don't tell anyone I told you that.
>>24819842Only once? Ever? Are you sure that's not suppose to be once per day?
>>24819842Oh dear, it seems that I had missed that. I must have mentally glossed over that as "You cannot perform this action more than once on the same day."We have indeed been living a lie all this time.Go home, everyone.
>>24819842The sad truth is that Fa/tg/uy was either delusional or lying to his mom about being a great game designer all along
>>24819866It says "You can only use this action once for a given Obsessive Hobby" one time and no more. You can use it for good once.
>>24819752Point is, the game lures you in by your imagination and you end up at a crossroads. As much as I'd like to think most of us would take the dark and scary path out instead of the same and comfortable path back to start, I'm too much of a pessimist to believe in people (including myself). Of course, that's probably the depression talking, but after 6 aborted attempts to break out in the last 3 months I just know that I'll send out a few half-hearted resumes and retreat back into my cave consoling myself with "tomorrow..." What sucks the most is how I know perfectly well that I can (and have) done it before but the slightest setback will just see me mentally defeating myself again; I guess I've just grown up on media that tells me everything will work out perfectly if you are the protagonist and when it didn't happen I just gave up and started thinking of myself as Extra #5. ...Fuck, that's even more depressing on paper than in my head. I'm sorry for being a downer in this thread, just ignore my gripping and best of luck to anyone inspired by fa/tg/uy's success.
>>24819866The same phrase is used for Probing a Rescuer. After all, once you knew why they were trying to help, there's nothing further to venture there.
>>24819874Hikikomori: The Reckoning: Revengeance: Redemption: Regret
>>24819875This is what happens when you lend Fujoshit your deodorant.
>>24819874>tfw /tg/'s lightning-fast recovery was all a dream
>>24819878hahahhahahahahahhaI take back everything bad I said about this game, it's fucking perfect.
So, looking it over: Real Friend is a pretty crappy trait. There's some ways to get hope but for the most part increasing the trait just leads to losing it and so does keeping it low.
>>24819874And it all comes crashing down like a fragile house of cards and dreams getting hit by the nailbat of reality.
Well, I got a day off tomorrow and fuck all to do with it, so I think I'll be playing this. Sometime tomorrow night, or maybe Wodansday, I'll post a thread with the 'diary.' Let's hope for a downer!
So... if someone else ran a quest thread for this, would anyone be up for it? Lightning-fast recovery aside and actually using the rules. Because I'm considering it but having never ran a quest thread I have no idea what I'd be doing.
>>24819944By the response in this thread? Just narrating what the rolls turn into looks great, even if you end up cheating on accident.
>>24819944I'm going to be immediately because holy shit 5:30, otherwise I'd be all in there.
I want to turn this into a drinking game, but I feel given the subject matter that it would not be a good idea.
>>24819957Bed* Yep, need sleep
>>24819944I'm not sure about it as a quest, I would give it try as a one-shot out of curiosity, it just seems like it is meant to be rather personal and introspective, not necessarily based on consensus.I'm actually tempted to play this game myself and see how things turn out. I'm not going to promise anything but I might post it here if I think it turns out interesting.
>>24819944It's too constricting. It would either derail completely so where you are no longer using the rules or just end really quickly..
> cheatingSo, fatguy got a crazy successful ks and delivered a half baked incoherent mess?
>>24819944I'd be down
Looking at it over, the best thing we could have *actually* done under the rules is take a risk with our mother:>Ignore>You emphatically ignore your Rescuer, and hope they’ll go away. Make a roll on your Rescuer trait dice:>1-7 She gets discouraged; reduce your Rescuer trait by one die.>8-16 She keeps at it. Nothing happens.>17+ She only gets more determined. Increase your Rescuer trait by one die.After a certain point, using Ignore will continuously buff the Rescuer, turning the Rescuer into an effective engine of Hope due to their Trait Action.Reverse psychology works wonders.
>>24819944I'm probably going to play it and write something up myself tomorrow, if I see a thread I may post what I have, but I don't think the rules would work with a legitimate quest thread.
>>24819972Probably never finished it, told his backers the sun told him not to or something.
>>24819998No remember he, fakes being sick, he just caught midwestern geese flu.
You know. If we just used different Traits and added something to occasionally hiner the spiraling this would be a pretty good system for generating narratives of any kind.
>>24820022Given that it's supposed to be about Hikkomori, I'd say prevent it more on the side of somehow hope spiralling.
Would anyone be interested in a second, more legitimate round of this game?Hopefully with less "missing critical rules text" and mixing up Player Actions.If so, should I keep the initial array of Obsessive Hobby (/tg/), Real Friend (NEET), and Rescuer (Crusader), or reroll the character creation stage?
>>24820057I would love to see more, and fresh rolls please
>>24820057Yes, a legit round would be good.Mix up the actions, read the rules, ect.I'd say reroll character, but we can just start over with the /tg/ fiend waking up from a dream or something of a life better than he could've hoped for.
>>24820057I would be but I need to get some sleep. It's late and I have things to do tomorrow.
>>24820057Sure, make this one be about Bloomwriter so we can have closure on that neckbeard.
>>24820057Yes, and reroll please.
Keep Obsessive Hobby (/tg/), or pick another starting Trait? If so, what should it be?Attempt a quest-style collective vote for what action to take next (which might be difficult given how many there are), or do it all by myself and attempt to cycle through every action except Do Nothing, Suicide Attempt, and Waste Time?
>>24820116You keep adding to your name my suggestions. I like that.And yeah, I guess Bloomwriter was /tg/ obsessed. Either that or 40k obsessed. Roll beyond that. And I'd rather it not be communal. I'll leave it to your judgement.
>>24820116Yeah, just go through a "what you think suits him best" while we all scream pointlessly at him for fucking up more and more. Go for it!
>>24820116I'd say do it as a full on quest. Make it Obsessive Trait: Quests
>>24820135>>24820145I will probably do this at around 2:00 A.M. EST tomorrow, so that I can rest and actually reuse the explanation images.Such a shame that our first attempt was flawed by missing one very important lines of rules text, but the dream came crashing down in a highly amusing fashion, at least.
>>24820172True enough. I'll try to be back by later when it goes down then. Hikikomori: The Reckoning: Revengeance: Redemption: Regret: Resolution
This is absolutely amazing, please continue.I haven't laughed this hard on /tg/ in a long time.
>>24819944 here. I'm going to start up one a sequel to this soon. Just going to settle down, read a bit more about this, weep gently about how accurately it describes me and then put up the thread.
>>24819791>RPG books should take longer than this to go through editing and such, right? It was almost as though everything was just a highly unrealistic dream, like all dreams are...I just realize that I had foreshadowed the crash of the dream.>>24820186"Redux" might be a better fit than "Resolution." Then again, why not both?
>>24820116I'd like to point out that Waste Time and occasionally even Do Nothing can be helpful to kill spare actions when the only other actions you have involve pitting your Hope against a monstrously large trait with the end result that the trait will get even worse, and either immediately or eventually eat away at your Hope dice.
>>24820333Ah, I was saying 'resolution' as in that this thread had run its course. But fuck it, through another Re on the pile.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9CzcOcBb_msThe song for when we awaken from our dream, our beautiful dream, to see the truth of our failure once more.
>>24820347Yeah, I just played through and that makes sense. The cards were stacked against me though with suicidal thoughts, imaginary friend and health problems. I then managed to acquire paranoia, although through that I did acquire a rescuer who got up to 12 dice by my repeated attempts to drive her away. Sadly she came a bit late- my hope dropped down to 1 before with her help I got it back up to 3. But hey, I think she kept me alive.
On the off-chance that I roll a delusion next thread...>Illogical (2d10): You’re convinced of something that’s just screwy and nonsensical, which leads you to acquire some odd habits.Would anyone object to having the character be an otherkin of some kind? Perhaps a classic case of fae otherkin?Would anyone actually prefer that to be the picked starting Trait, rather than Obsessive Hobby (/tg/)?
>>24820452...also my imaginary friend got really hostile. I was saved by demeanour 2-3 missing text.
>>24820457I'd have to pass. That'd bring the furries out of the woodwork.
>>24820457...Are you actually going full parody of yourself?Don't answer that.
>>24820469I notice that if you can keep your Imaginary Friend's Demeanor at a stable 7 to 9, you can potentially use it as an effective source of Hope. Its Trait Action and the Conversation Player Action both allow you to gain Hope.Who knew that talking to an imaginary friend could be so effective?
>>24820558Do you have a friend who helps you out generally by just agreeing with you? It might be an imaginary friend acting as your subconscious!
Goddamn this game is depressing, if you don't luck out with a coaxing rescuer it gets pretty hard to raise that hope and suicide just becomes a better option day by day. Fucking hell, it's like the game is telling me that if no one comes to your rescue and you have a few negative traits you might as well off yourself now and save time. I get that it's easier to pull yourself out when you have someone helping, but damn is this depressing for my forever alone ass.
>>24820942I hear ya, all the way to the mental asylum.
>>24820942Well there's no way to avoid making this sound hokey as fuck, but if you are seriously in life-imploding levels of seclusion, send me an email. I've somehow blundered through making two people's lives better by letting them talk at me on the internet so I guess it could work a third time.If you're just an introvert who got depressed reading an RPG, then relax. The hikikowhatever's problem isn't that he's not a social butterfly, it's that he's completely friendless (so much so that having one, single friend is a special trait) and going absolutely nowhere. No education, employment, or training is different from "doesn't go to parties hardly ever and has like four close friends instead of forty distant ones."
>>24821099I appreciate the gesture, I really do, but no thanks. I already know what needs to be done to get out of here, I've done it once before and managed to keep it up for 2 years before my self-destructive tendencies dragged me back. The problem is just mustering up the willpower to take the first step again (or I guess the second step since the first is acknowledging your problem and deciding to correct it), knowing that the it'll be an endless struggle is mainly what's defeating me; I know that one step is not enough and if I go into this relying on anyone but myself I'll just end up stumbling and falling again once that person inevitably strays even a tiny bit from the idealized angel in my head. So thank you for the offer, but if I rely on someone, that just means I don't trust myself to do it; personally, I think if you can't believe in yourself you might as well go get a head injury and spent the rest of your life with a live-in care-aid spoon feeding you gruel and wiping your ass for you. I don't mean to be harsh, and it's not like I don't see the value of having friends and trusted people to talk to, but talking when you know what needs to be done instead of doing it is just weakness, and the weak cannot walk the path I'm trying to follow.
Somebody should archive this.
3:00 - Another day draws to a close and as usual little has been accomplished. The futility of it all has me thinking about just ending it all again. I start thinking about how I would actually do the deed, running through a mental checklist of the most suitable items. My thoughts focus Increasingly on the gleaming switchblade I received from a friend for a birthday a long time ago. I keep it on my desk and flip it sometimes when I'm feeling dangerous. It would probably be very easy to slit my wrists or neck open with it and bleed out. I pick it up, flip the blade out, and run my thumb along it's edge. Six inches of razor sharp metal brush against my skin and I begin to daydream about resting peacefully in a pool of my own blood.
>>24820942Suck it up buttercup. Anything worthwhile has to be earned for it to mean anything.You want to be handed a happy ending on a plate? Go fuck yourself, might as well save life the trouble of doing it later. If you can't do this yourself then you're just going to be back here in 3 years wailing about how your rescuer abandoned you when all they did was move on and live their own life like you should be doing.Every man is an island. Go out and earn your happy ending with sweat and blood and I promise you, you'll never feel this way again.
>>24821472 A piercing pain in my thumb quickly snaps me out of my daze. "Shit!", I yelp. The sight of my own blood sends my pulse skyrocketing and I realize then just how scared I am of actually going through with this. Maybe some other day... I quickly lick the blood from my hand and put the knife back onto my desk, sleep seeming like a much better idea than fumbling around in the dark with a dangerous weapon. As I climb into bed expecting the warm comfort of soft pillows and bedsheets, the pain in my lower abdomen flairs up again. "What the hell is that?", I wonder aloud.For a while, I lay there wincing and rubbing desperate circles into my stomach until sleep finally takes me.
>>24821498This is fiction man chill>>24821504 13:00 - A loud series of knocks rips me from my dreams and I stumble out of bed in a panick. "Shit! its the landlord!", I whisper to myself as I scramble to the door with spider-like movements and plant my ear against the door. "Ey! Open up!", growls the intruder in a low and menacing voice. I freeze with terror and consider the worst possible scenario. The disgusting state of my room immediately comes to mind. Rank and dirty clothes litter the floor, days old bags of food and garbage are piled in the corner, and in the center of the room stands a two liter bottle...filled to the brim with piss. "Aw fuck! If this guy sees this place he'll kick me out for sure!", I think to myself.
>>24821556My breathing intensifies and I grab my shoulders, rocking back and forth as I dread having to move back in with Mom and Dad. Soon the nightmare is over as I here rusty squeak of an opening door and a shaky female voice. "S-sorry, I was in the bathroom", she mutters. "You stupid bitch! I told you to be ready before I got here!", the angry male roars. "Sorry! Please! I'm ready let's just go." she replies with a trembling voice. The sound of a slammed door and hurried footsteps fully release me from the iron grip of terror and I slink down to the cold floor to rest. "Fuck that was close..", I mutter to myself. I spend the rest of the day huddled on the floor, holding my knees, and staring at knife on my desk.
>>24818786Jesus fuck this entire thread is weapons-grade depression.
>roll up an exaggerated version of myself with a loser friend, chest pains and suicidal thoughts>start on Monday morning>dead by Tuesday eveningwell, shit
>>24821642It's just like browsing /jp/.
>>24819618B-but I live 15 from the city, my parents are 400 miles off and my few fiends 100 miles away.How can i do thing with noone to suck vitality and motivation from?
It's like little-/r9k/ up in here.All we need is some more misogyny and we set!
You have only made my resolve to continue my quest to find a new job and improve myself intensify. No one defeats me.
>>24821763Not even... YOURSELF?
>inb4 200 Hiki Quest threads
>>24821883I'll admit, I'm often my own worst enemy. But that's how you win - you learn how to face yourself. You don't hit the branches of the problem, you drill to the core to address the problem directly. And I've been doing that, learning how to release my own internal blocks and feel better, and get even more productive.It's not all fun and games, but I'm getting there, more than most people will do.
>>24821920I actually did a playthrough on my own just now. Couldn't decide on a trait to select at the start, so I just rolled for that too. Ended up with an anorexic /mlp/ tulpamancer who smoked weed erryday and continuously failed to go outside.Ultimately he kicked the drugs and even went for a walk, but was sadly convinced by his schizophrenic delusions that he was some kind of Pony Jesus.
>>24821556I will not "chill", it needs to be said. I admit I could have said it in a nicer tone, but what would that accomplish? Anger is a great motivator and if I've pissed off even one depressed whiner and maybe inspired him to prove me wrong out of spite then I consider my job done. Action, not words, is what matters. If you are unsatisfied with your lot in life, go out and change it; no one ever got anywhere sitting around moping instead of doing something, anything.
>>24822063That's rough, man.
>>24822070I don't think you understand. What I wrote was fiction based on what I rolled while playing the game. Did you even read the thread? None of what I wrote applies to me or my life. It was just for fun
>>24822233Seems we got off on the wrong foot, I was replying to >>24820942, not your story.
>>24822233>>24822380I have no issue with your story, but I stand by what I said to any and all anons who were and might still be watching this thread.
>RPG of the year>It's not even a game, it's a creative writing exercise/choose your own adventure book.Who decides these things?
>The game can end with you being "cured", living a "normal life" or "figur[ing] out what you want to do with you life."Goddamn introvert shamers.
>>24824457That doesn't mean you become an extrovert or a social butterfly, but even for an introvert not going outside ever isn't healthy, not having motivation for your life and hiding away while you waste away is not a good thing for introverts or extroverts.Hitting 10 hope at the end just means that you take the steps to go outside, you find something you care about enough to leave your room, it doesn't mean you'll start being extroverted.
>>24825093Or at the very least getting a ****ing job.