!uGYNBMPzOs 01/11/11(Tue)03:31 No.13478522|
"That is true, there are many things you are capable of, Lena. Things most would never be able to accomplish in their lives. But what matters, is what do you _want_ to do? I've seen you reading, or relaxing in Wulfs arms... and I've seen you after battles too. There is no need to lie, and no need to constantly 'earn' your belonging. A family does not disown their own, ever, and you are one of us now." you reply as sternly as you can without scolding.
"No, it is not right for one who is capable of defending the Ghorat, the family, to not do so simply because it pains them. I... I wasnt vomiting because of what I did. There were no wounded and dying after my first battle. When we took the manor though, there were. I dont leave men broken, screaming for mercy that wont come in time in pools of their own blood and fluids. I learned yesterday that the faces of the men I killed werent those of agony, but shock. agony is the man I saw stabbed through his groin and immasculated bleeding out on top of the man he thought he had slain, pain is the soldier who died from a festering wound on his arm. You took me in, and allowed me to earn my place in the family" she continues, gratitude in her eyes "and for that I thank you. I thank you even more for what you decided to teach me, Black Magic and Necromancy were both equally viable schools for one with my skills... and I would not be able to use them to protect my family as I can use this" she confesses, hefting the tome she is reading "I would not be able to inflict such pain on another, to defile their bodies and very souls as the other schools would have me. I am the most merciful one on the battlefield, the only painless way a soldier can fall, to sudden and terribly powerful for the body to feel anything but release from life. Anything else... after being to the hospice tent... I could not."